I’ve been working on the long-delayed update to my per­sonal web­site. The prover­bial kick in the butt that will hope­fully get things moving was the removal of all the old web­site files from my server space. Now I have a few com­pleted pages and a lot of dead links. I need to get these fixed as soon as pos­sible. Hope­fully, the fix will be a ver­sion of my new website.

In the process of backing up my old files, I stum­bled across some­thing mar­velous. For a few months at the begin­ning of 2005, I kept a blog. The begin­ning of that year was a very inter­esting tran­si­tional time in my life. I was re-evaluating my life and preparing to go back to school. I was living in a place I hated but inter­acting with some very inter­esting people. For the first time in many years I felt pur­pose and direc­tion. My writing at that time was a reflec­tion of those and a few other things – including a brief and ill-fated rela­tion­ship with someone I never expected was inter­ested in me at all.

I’m glad I found this. It’s inter­esting as a window into that time of my life. The writing presents a stark con­trast to who I am  now as I look for­ward to get­ting mar­ried and thinking about a family of my own. It also is a look back to the begin­ning. Every­thing I’ve built or torn down in this ver­sion of my life started from that point. I had stripped my world down to the bone and was ready to start over. Every life has pivot points and that was one of mine.

I’m may add those long-lost posts to this blog as a way of cap­turing and pre­serving those moments. They are bit­ter­sweet (mostly sweet) mem­o­ries and I’m glad they’re still lingering.