74GB

I contemplate the importance of the past in a profession of non-stop newness.

Posted April 6 2012
Design, Opinion
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There are 74GB. That’s what I want to delete from the department’s file archive on the university’s file server. That hunk of bits rep­re­sents more than 10 years of accu­mu­lated notes, HTML files, scripts, photos, Visio dia­grams, backup copies, aban­doned Pho­to­shop mockups. Most of them are more than 6 years old – from a pre­vious era of web­site devel­op­ment and dig­ital pub­lishing. What pos­sible good could all of these files still be?

It’s said that modern society has no sense of his­tory. The 80’s, which only hap­pened 30 years ago, have already come and gone a second time from pop­ular cul­ture. Vietnam, Wood­stock, the oil crisis, the hostage crisis – even the word crisis – these are words only older people will say. But with web designers and devel­opers, the problem is even worse. Font tags? Tables? <center>? Wha? These are not from all that long ago. Remember Cyber­studio? Director?

Our his­tory dis­ap­pears under the breaking waves of the latest thing. CSS gives way to SASS and LESS. Flash is all but lost to HTML5 and jQuery. Does anyone still write ‘normal’ javascript? Does anyone still use IE6? I don’t mourn these losses. In cul­ture it’s cliche to look back on the good old days, but in our line of work we cel­e­brate the fact that we never have to again deal with the dif­fer­ences in DHTML for Netscape vs. Internet Exploder even as we embrace the chaos of internet-capable devices (have you tested your web­site on a Playsta­tion yet?) and the gremlin-like mul­ti­pli­ca­tion of media queries in our stylesheets.

But his­tory is there for us to learn from. His­tory is mis­takes. His­tory is the first time we tried some­thing and got it all wrong. We learn from his­tory. It informs our future. The his­tory of others is just as instruc­tive as our own his­tory. How did other people try and fail? What mis­takes can I avoid? What did they finally do to over­come their prob­lems? Or, more simply, “am I throwing away valu­able knowl­edge that is hidden like dia­monds in 74GB of kimberlite?”

I’m not so sure. The truth is, some­times I do look back on the “good old days” of my own web design expe­ri­ence. I look fondly upon the work I did when I had no idea what I was doing. It might not have been my best work, but some of my most cre­ative work was done when I didn’t know the rules. When I wasn’t sad­dled by my own expe­ri­ence or boxed-in by ‘best prac­tices’ (or even prac­ti­cality) my mind was free, my imag­i­na­tion took over and I did some pretty cool things. Some of them were simply exper­i­ments or projects that never saw the light of day. But they are cre­ations I take bit­ter­sweet pride in. Where did my cre­ative spirit go? It was tamed by expe­ri­ence, domes­ti­cated by his­tory. That hurts a little. I may be more suc­cessful as a web designer and pub­lisher now. I know more. But am I better? Am I proud of my own work? Mostly… no.

The grown up in me knows the solu­tion. I need to learn from expe­ri­ence – absorb the wisdom of his­tory – but still main­tain the free mind required to be truly cre­ative. Easier sad than done. Some­times the urge to simply wipe the hard drive, destroy the CD archive, and start with a fresh install is too much to ignore. The good cook starts with a clean kitchen, fresh ingre­di­ents, and an empty restau­rant. The suc­cessful quar­ter­back for­gets the last play whether it was a touch­down or a pick six. And yet modern cui­sine would not be so without the lessons of culi­nary his­tory. Good foot­ball players know and acknowl­edge the his­tory of the game. There is a time for the past and a time for the present. Where’s my game face?

I prefer the cre­ative moment. I’m hap­piest in the new project when the research is done and it’s time to put pixels on the screen. Hap­pi­ness is the blank canvas, the empty <body> tag, the infi­nite pos­si­bility between { and }.

I have to make space some­where for the past as well. Maybe not 74GB worth, but something.